I hate Christmas.

Things are so fucked up.  My "family".
Every day I lose more sleep and worry and think just a little bit harder about how I can possibly fix this whole stupid gong show.  It's just so hopeless.
I miss Leah.  She's in the middle of no-where Ontario with her dad until after the new year.  Next year I'm going away and taking a holiday. 

This sucks.