Oh, how I wish that deleting scenes from my life was as easy as deleting them from my blog.

Well, there was some pretty crazy, heavy stuff that occurred in '05.  But you know what, I've been doing some thinking about who I am and who I'd like to be.  It seems that the dawn of a new year is the perfect time to do that, and as such, I've decided on my resolution.

I'm letting go.  I'm removing the negative.  I am refusing to stoop any longer, and I feel that I did lower myself in writing about the episode in my blog.  No matter how hard I tried to behave civilly, I did not have that civility returned.  Such anger at personal attacks on one's home, psyche and security has a way of bringing people down to all fours.  I do feel extremely justified in my anger, but it does not excuse my actions.

Don't get me wrong..there are some things that I just won't be able to forgive.  Not for a very long time, anyhow...if ever.  But being angry about it?  Well, it's really just a waste of energy and life.  I have a very full and happy life and there is no room for this in it.  So, it's gone.  I can't say that I'll ever have any trust or sense of friendship with the offender again, but I'm not angry anymore. 

In short, the recent events are something that I wish never happened and though I'll never forget, it isn't something that I'd like to revisit.  So I hold up my head, kiss whoever is closest to me at the stroke of 12, and vow to remove the negative; to let go of the anger and focus on brightening our future.