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This is my adopted goth fetus named "Cringe". Hooray fetus!


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05.28.04 (7:06 am)   [edit]
Well, I'm feeling better today.
Whew! I went through about a week-long stint there that was kinda freaky. Not happy with work, being sick, just generally miserable and blue. I finally got off my sorry ass last night and did the dishes...heh.
But today I'm feeling much better. I still have the sniffles, but they are happy sniffles. I'm still having some problems with work, but I'm looking forward to leaving it behind me and changing a lot of things in my life.
I got my mojo back.
So, tonight I'm gonna take my kid to Erich's birthday swaree and do some bowling. Hopefully I'll get paid from job number 2 tomorrow, and that'll make life sweet again. Maybe I'll even buy a new stereo for my truck...heh. That should do something for morale.
Anyhow, that's it in a nutshell.
8)
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Dreams:

Okay, Rilla is doing this dream thing and I recently had a really really bizarre dream that I was kinda waffling about sharing with everyone. But here goes...

I was about 4 months pregnant...maybe closer to 6. I went to the doctor and we were in an examination room. There was a third person there who was faceless, but I presume him to be the father. More of a presence than a person, really.

So there is a problem with the baby. The doctor performs this uber-quick and painless c-section and removes it. I get sewn up and am able to walk around immediately after.

The "infant" laying on the table is female, about the size of a very thin three year old girl. Bald, tall and very skinny. She is not "bent" like an infant would be, but is laying flat on her back with arms and legs out straight. She looks a lot like a flesh-coloured, stereotypical alien.

So the doctor tells me that she is viable outside the womb but I would have to be at the hospital constantly in order to feed and care for her to ensure that she grows without any permanent damage.

(Okay, here's where it gets really really wierd)

Then he made a "joke" or comment or whatever, and said that he could fill the empty space where the baby was with gold coins, leaving an opening in my stomach, (I probably should specify that...heh), and keep me under the sink so that every now and then I could drop coins through a hole cut in the floor to him in his office right below.

That's it.

I have a scary feeling that I know what this dream means. I think it has to do with my decision to go back to school for many years. The potential for enlarging my family is limited. Or perhaps it is that I am worried that I will not have enough money and resources for both my education AND for Leah. Maybe deep down I think that she needs more than I would be able to give her and I'm feeling selfish about this whole thing. Or maybe it means that I think I am removing myself from Leah too soon. What I want to be when I grow up is a doctor.

Maybe I don't really know what it means.

Well, there's my contribution to Rilla's endeavours.
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posted by: James (reply)
post date: 05.28.04 (6:41 pm)

This is just off the top of my head, but this is what I think the various parts of the dream could mean:

The painless c-section that you recover from immediately:

There will be difficulty at the beginning, but nothing that you can’t overcome.

The alien-esque baby:

Perhaps you fear missing Leah grow-up and fear that she will become alien to you.

The doctor’s comment that the baby will need to be at the hospital constantly:

Hospitals are places of healing, and nurturing (or they should be). Maybe it is your subconscious saying that in order for Leah not to be so alien to you, you will have to make extra effort to take care of her.

Gold inside your belly, where the baby was:

You will give birth to inner riches (a sign of a rewarding experience for you)

I have no formal training in psychology so take this for what it is worth. In fact I will go so far as to say that I am the William Hung of dream analysis.

She BANG! She BANG! Ooooh baby….

Heh.




posted by: care (reply)
post date: 05.28.04 (7:15 pm)

The potential for a larger family has to be on hold, while you nurture this one while going to school... the gold coins... you are investing in your childs and future childrens lives when you set out to do what you are going to do... its a great thing... she will see you as selfish for a few years in her life, butyou konw all kids see their parents as selfish at some point intheir lives for a few years... and she may not see that until shes 16 and can't have the car for her friends to go camping for a weekend... boy mom you are SO SELFISH!!!... you had the car LAST weekend... jeepers... I want the mercedes this weekend... at this point, you should reassess your priorities... but not till then cause they seem pretty straight... just think, you and her are going to be going to school at the same time, and she'll be getting her education in part from you! how friggin cool is that?? shes learning math, your learning anatomy at the kitchen table!!!!



posted by: care (reply)
post date: 05.28.04 (9:42 pm)

By the Way... thanks for coming to Erichs birthday party!!... I really think he loved Leah's assistance!! *G*... I'll scan the photos when I get them developed!

ttyl

carrie



posted by: SNEEVIL (reply)
post date: 05.28.04 (9:45 pm)

Reply to: care

It was our pleasure. Thanks for inviting us. It was lots of fun!!



posted by: Mark (reply)
post date: 05.29.04 (11:03 am)

Reply to: SNEEVIL
So how many "tbucks" did the whole Stripper argument rack up for you? Hehehehe...



posted by: SNEEVIL (reply)
post date: 05.29.04 (12:10 pm)

Reply to: Mark

Twenty seven, my friend. Twenty Seven. I'm rolling in T-Bucks!!



posted by: SNEEVIL (reply)
post date: 05.29.04 (12:27 pm)

Reply to: James

Well, Papi.... ;)
I'm feelin' better about the whole thing. Thanks for your comment.



posted by: SNEEVIL (reply)
post date: 05.29.04 (12:37 pm)

Reply to: care

You guys make it out to be way more positive than I would have thought. Thanks Carrie.



posted by: care (reply)
post date: 05.29.04 (2:41 pm)

look with the gold and your readings... it was obvious... so far you are the only person who the spirits agreed with you getting wealth...

and the doctor was happy...



posted by: James (reply)
post date: 05.29.04 (9:43 pm)

Reply to: SNEEVIL

Just happy to help (if I did help). It wasn't my fault! (if I didn't). ;



posted by: Marko (reply)
post date: 05.30.04 (9:57 am)

Reply to: SNEEVIL
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